Long Time No Blog

January 23, 2019

Well hey, Merry Christmas, Happy New Year and all that fun stuff I’ve spaced on since my last post! I guess I should recap on the last few months to bring you up to speed. We covered mostly all the same things before. Nowadays it’s just trying to take things a day at a time. My memory has been getting slowly worse, I lost my job at the factory in Portland because I couldn’t physically do my job anymore with the memory loss and degenerative muscles in my arms. When I lost my job at the factory, I lost my apartment too, so I had moved in with a mom of someone I went to high school with…and that was an entire disaster. That lady was completely nuts! Always yelling, going through my things, blaming everyone for everything. It was rough. From there on I decided living in my car was best. Packed up all my things into my little Grand Prix and that’s where I stayed. I would drive to a remote spot in the walmart parking lot or somewhere of that nature and get some sleep. I’ve gone through 2 more jobs since the factory life and both of them I’ve lost fairly quickly because of health related issues. I was a bartender(that’s right haha your girl is 21 now) and a waitress at the local Pizza Hut. Mayo Clinic trips were going well until I lost my insurance, so now I cant see anyone. No insurance = no doctors. I’m trying my best to take that as a good thing. If no doctors can tell me what’s wrong with me, maybe I can pretend I’m healthy? I managed to get into the local shelter, and it’s definitely not easy living conditions. Being around so many other people and their kids is trying. I keep getting assigned chores that I either have to wait for someone else to finish theirs or chores that are just naturally difficult for me to do. Some of the staff are really cool though, and we can bring in our own food too so that’s a plus. I started a new job at a gas station nearby the shelter last Monday and it seems to be going well so far, just waiting I guess for them to realise I cant remember half of what they tell me…just a matter of time before they fire me or dock my hours big time. I get my first paycheck on Thursday of this week and I’m actually excited to see how much it is since I managed nearly 5 hours of overtime in my first week! Maybe things will look up, who knows? Until next time I remember to update everyone-

Keep on Fighting..

Surgery Complications

September 25th Recap-

I had an anal skin tag removal caused by a post pregnancy hemmerhoid. It was causing pain and infections due to the size and location. It was nearly the size of half my pointer finger, and it didn’t want to go easily. It took 4 shots of Lidocaine to completely numb me due to there being nerves and blood flow to the tag. I had it since the beginning of my 3rd trimester, and my daughter is now roughly a year and a half old. The surgeon removed it, but never gave any instructions. No post op help at all. No pain medication, didn’t tell me what to expect. 3 hours after the removal was over, the gauze fell off and I began bleeding profusely. Blood going down my leg-I stood in my shower for a few minutes to minimize the amount of blood getting on the carpet of my bathroom. I then drove myself to the Emergency Room, and ended up bleeding all over the hospital bed. The doctor who saw me said by no means was it supposed to bleed like that. It wasn’t really supposed to bleed at all until my first bowel movement following the surgery. He numbed me again after finding where exactly on the incision it was coming from, and carterised it with silver nitrate. He told me it was an open incision, no stitches or anything. Something my surgeon failed to tell me. They stopped the bleeding and gave me a few Hydrocodone pills to last me the night and instructed me to see the surgeon first thing the next day. I took the pain pills as soon as the Lidocaine wore off, waited 35 minutes, but still there was no relief. I was in agonizing pain. I was crying, hoping the pills would kick in soon. I called the on call surgeon, told him I didn’t have any instructions on what to do and that the pills the ER gave me weren’t working. He said I had to find a ride to the hospital since I couldn’t drive with narcotics in my system and if I couldnt find a ride, he’d come get me himself. My neighbor ended up driving me, and the on call surgeon called the ER, told them I was coming, and what to give me. I sat in that hospital room for what felt like forever, waiting for the doctor to come in and take my pain away. It was after midnight at this point and I had cried so much that my nose was stuffed up and my ear felt like it was going to explode from the sinus pressure. Finally he came in, armed with 2 very large syringes of Midocaine-a stronger and longer lasting version of Lidocaine. The pain went away, but where he stuck the needle for the numbing medicine, I started bleeding bad again. So for the second time in one night, I managed to be covered in blood and drench a hospital bed as well. Doctor in the ER said that just from what he’d seen, I probably lost close to a liter of blood on Tuesday. I found a ride home and finally got the sleep my body was longing for.

September 26th Recap-

I woke up sore, but in slightly less pain than the night before. I had my CT scan of my neck the Hematologist ordered to check my lymph nodes. Then directly following I went to my surgeon’s office to hopefully get some answers about what happened. He explained that in his experience, not stitching up the incision has caused dramatically less pain than stitching it would have, because there’s no pull on the skin or muscles in such a sensitive area. He doesn’t know what caused the bleeding, but he did prescribe me Norco, and told me that in order to limit the chance of bleeding again, that I was going to be taken off work until my post surgery check up next Wednesday. He wants me on bed rest(I live alone and things need done, so I’m trying to follow it as much as I can). I turned in the paperwork to my employer, and am on a leave of absence until next week. It won’t cost me points, but it’s unpaid leave meaning I’m going to be stretched awfully thin until I can get back to work. I took the Norco every 4-6 hours after I got home like I was supposed to, and stayed in bed bored out of my mind.

September 27, 2018

I woke up groggy, and still very sore. I still haven’t taken a poo since about 3:20pm on Tuesday. If I don’t have my first post op bowel movement tomorrow, back to the surgeon I go to figure out why. I’ve downed about a half case of water bottles and began taking fiber supplements to make sure I’m not constipated. Still taking the Norco every 4-6 hours and sleeping a lot, though the pills are starting to make me feel nauseous once they’ve nearly worn off. I have a pretty white bucket next to my bed just in case. There’s not really much I can say about how anything else is doing, seeing as I’m stuck in bed unless there’s something I actually have to do.

Here’s to a Speedy Recovery…

Waking Up Sick

September 22, 2018

Woke up this morning and the entirety of my gums were swollen. Dry throat, irritable, and tired. Oh the joys of waking up at 4:30am just to find that you’re sick and still have to go to work. Downed my vitamins(took an extra of each for good luck) and got ready for the day.

I ended up in the cleaning area all day, just spraying down parts and getting things sparkly.Working a high pressured water gun for 10 hours definitely doesn’t make my arm feel any better. But oh, I forgot to mention in the post for yesterday-hematologist said he’s checking my neck for something extra besides the lymph nodes. I cant remember exactly what it was, but I guess there could be some sort of mix up in my neck that could be causing all of the problems in my arm, so that’s sort of half and half on good news.

Anyways, overall my day was uneventful healthwise. Same old bleeding gums, got dizzy a few times, and the 20 minute headache was awful. Just another fun filled time in a factory I suppose. My raise starts tomorrow so that should definitely help a lot, as well as what the answer will be from the Commander of the local American Legion. I may be able to start singing there and getting paid even though I’m only 20. I’m really hoping that goes well, I’ve been really wanting to branch out some and sing for more than my mirror. Well, I have a 13-16 hour shift tomorrow and got to this late, so off to bed I go 😴

Just Another day in Paradise…

What Happened?

September 21, 2018

My hematologist appointment was surprising in a couple ways. To start, we have no idea how, and no idea why, but my Iron-which has been nearly bottomed out all year-is suddenly almost too high of a level. The second surprise(to me at least), is that I may have sleep apnea. It would explain why I’m exhausted even when I get the right amount of sleep at night. He’s debating a sleep study, so I suppose I’ll hear back on that.

To follow up with the sudden mix between Neurology and Hematology, my chances of the lesions on my brain being caused by the beginning signs of Multiple Sclerosis is now roughly 90%. Hematologist said that there was no way my anemia would have caused it. The Lymph Nodes the Neurologist found with the brain MRI have been passed on to hematology and I’ll be getting a neck CT with an IV contrast on Wednesday. And of course the outpatient surgery(courtesy of pregnancy-have to get them bad boys removed) on Tuesday. That leaves Monday to spend time with my daughter uninterrupted by work or doctors seeing as I work the rest of the week after Wednesday.

Still waiting to get the Neurology appointment with the Mayo clinic set up, they said they’d more than likely call this upcoming week for that(fingers crossed I can get it the same day as Hematology).

Onward to Tomorrow…

Bleeding

September 20, 2018

I had my blood work done today for my current Hematologist. Looked up on my health record what exactly he was checking…big surprise-my blood count levels. I suppose I’ll know those results tomorrow. I slept a lot today…feeling more drained than usual. I can’t really comment on how my arm is feeling. As it was my day off, I take pride in the fact I managed to do absolutely nothing today other than stopping at the hospital for the bloodwork. The technician that drew my blood had an entertained look on her face. I had asked her “have you ever drawn my blood before?” to which her response was no. I naturally told her the speech of how I have rolling veins, but also have an identical vein on each arm towards the outside where most everyone else likes to draw my blood, and they found using the butterfly needle works best so when my vein moves, the needle tends not to push on the other side of it. She just looked at me funny like “dang she apparently does this a lot”. I thought it was funny a little. People think I’m knowledgable about medical things, but really it’s just that I’ve had all the terms surrounding all my tests and results repeated to me when I ask questions, that I just know what partains to myself.

Some cool news I got today was that I might be able to get in at the American Legion where I live for me to sing and get paid for it, so that would be awesome to help make the spare money I can use to travel to the Mayo Clinic.

My Vampire Doctor Awaits…

Holding On

September 19, 2018

Breathing. Something so easy shouldn’t be so difficult! Work was bad today. I was moving way too much. In case anyone was wondering, Anemia sucks. When you go up a flight of stairs, or you’re using all the muscle in your legs to walk and push something, blood rushes to your legs with freshly oxygenated cells for your muscles. Cool, right? No. That means when you’re anemic and don’t have the same volume of blood as the average person, oxygenated blood going anywhere but your heart and lungs causes you to look like a 700 pound person that just tried to run the mile. You’re huffing and puffing and yawning on repeat cause your body is trying to convince you to get more air. You’re out of breath after the most mundane of things. It gets kind of annoying really. That’s how my workday was . My arm feels like jelly, I spat out blood on every break from my gums, and I have an ache in my head that makes me want to crawl into the fetal position and not get up.

I have blood work tomorrow for the Hematologist that’s close to home. He gets the “honor” of checking me for lymphoma because, not sure if I mentioned it already(but I don’t think I did), when the hospital did the brain MRI for my Neurologist, part of my neck managed to get in the picture and they found “Numerous Nonspecific Lymph nodes in the partially imaged neck”. My Neurologist said I would now have to be checked for Lymphoma because I guess there shouldn’t be so many lymph nodes in a persons neck? I don’t know. All I know is I did what any rational person would do and I researched it. Went to WebMD and the Mayo Clinic site to figure out what exactly Lymphoma is and if there was a chance of me having that too. Turns out it’s a cancer of ones Lymph nodes(the infection fighting glands throughout the body). Also turns out, I do have the beginning signs, heck my neck has been a form of swollen for almost ten years. They found nodules in my thyroid gland about a year ago, but never did anything for it or tested to see if that was cancer either. I’m staying positive though. If you google your symptoms, you’ll end up with 4 terminal cancers, 6 highly contagious viruses, and a headache. So for now I’ll wait and see.

I ended up making a Fundraiser to try and come up with the travel money I’ll need for Mayo Clinic Florida, hopefully that takes off soon. It’d be nice to be able to pay bills And see some of the country’s best doctors. But hey, what’s being an adult without financial struggle? Hahaha

Living the Dream… (with full sarcasm)

Good News-Finally-Kinda

September 18th, 2018 

I got the call I’ve been waiting for around noon today. The Mayo Clinic in Florida finally got the recommendation that my Physician sent! It’s going to be a long road ahead of me, both figuratively and literally. Living in Indiana, Jacksonville, Florida is 13 and a half hours away, and at this point no one can come with me. The catch is that Internal Medicine is booked out to January, so they’re splitting my appointments up. If I’m lucky, Neurology will call me today as well and by some miracle, I can schedule the appointment for them the same day as Hematology. For now though, I have my first Mayo Clinic appointment set for next month-October 23rd. I’m nervous and worried and excited all in one. I’m nervous about having to drive such a long way on my own. I’m worried that either they won’t find out what’s causing my health to tank, or that they will and it’ll be something extremely bad and that I really am going to miss my daughter grow up. However, I have to try to keep my excitement at the top of my feelings list-I’m finally going to see some of the best diagnosticians in the whole country!

I’m not really sure how I’m going to do it. This is going to take a lot of hard work, and hopefully help from my friends and family. A 13 and a half hour drive in a little Grand Prix doesn’t exactly shout Super Cheap Trip. I’m going to have to make sacrifices to cut back my daily living so that I can save the money I’m going to need to make multiple trips to Florida. I have to assume this is going to be a process, so I’m going to have to make multiple car rides. I can’t relocate to Florida indefinitely, not with my daughter living in Indiana with her dad. All I really do know is I have to do this. Not just for me, I don’t care to get better for myself. I need to do what it takes to get where I need to go to get healthy for my daughter. She’s everything to me and I don’t think I would’ve made it this far in my life if not for her. I don’t want her to grow up in a world where I’m not there.

Here’s to Tomorrow…

When It All Began.

March 24th, 2017, is when I gave birth to my beautiful daughter, and the first time I thought I wasn’t going to make it through to the next day. 35 hours of labor that ended in an emergency cesarean section in order to save our lives. I lost just enough blood to not need a transfusion, but my blood count took a hit and I needed Iron medication to level me back out in order to go home when my daughter was released from the hospital.

April, 2017, for a few days I had a horrible pain that kept hitting the center of my chest-like getting kicked in the heart from the inside-that would go away and come back, but I was caring for a jaundiced newborn so I just let it go. Then we were walking around Wal-Mart one night, the night before my daughter turned 4 weeks old, and the pain hit-so intense I felt I couldn’t breathe-and so I told my boyfriend I needed to go to the hospital. Hands above my head to open my airways the entire 45 minute drive, 15 minutes waiting in an emergency room yelling at the receptionist I couldn’t breathe and nearly choking on my tears, and an EKG followed with an entire syringe of morphine just for them to tell me I overreacted about stomach acid. We drove home, I was doped out and as the morphine wore off, the pain hitting my chest came back-I knew something was wrong. I left my daughter with her dad and drove myself an hour to an ER in the city, waited in a freezing room with no food or water for 4 hours, and was tested for everything that could be causing my pain. After an ultrasound they found out my gallbladder was nearly ready to burst and immediately admitted me for emergency surgery in the morning. They said had I waited any longer, or accepted what the other ER had said, it would’ve burst and I probably would’ve gone septic. That was the second time I nearly died in a month. My daughter came to visit me in the hospital the day she turned 4 weeks old, and I was still there 2 days later to get a splint in my bile duct(the opening stomach acid goes through). My body began rejecting the splint a week later and I had to have the removal bumped up 2 weeks to keep me from being in more pain.

 December 2017, time had passed and I thought the worse of my troubles were over. I had turned 20 in November without so much as a paper cut. Silly me for hoping, because then my hair started falling out. Slowly at first, but then progressed to clogging a drain after just one shower. The sides of behind my ears, the front, the nape of my neck. The hair just kept coming out.

February 2018, I began noticing my right arm felt funny…weaker than I remembered it. It was weird, noticing how I went from being able to carry 2 five gallon buckets of ice in one hand, to dropping just one and my arm feeling so strained from so little work. I didn’t know what was happening, but I figured it was time to get checked out. This was my first Dr appointment of the year, bringing to my physician’s attention not only my arm, but the hair loss as well as it had progressed to the sides of my head being nearly bald at that point. He tried to tell me it was tension Alopecia, that my ponytails were too tight. I had been wearing the same tightness of ponytail since I was 5 years old; there’s no way that’s what caused it. He reluctantly said that it must be a different form of Alopecia, but that there’s nothing he can do about it since the steroid liquid he gave me wasn’t helping. He had no idea what was wrong with my arm, why it was getting so weak, so he sent me to the Orthopedics to have them run tests.

March 2018, Orthopedic center came back with nothing. My arm was cleared of any orthopedic problems, yet it continued to get worse. It was difficult to hold my now year old baby girl for extended periods of time, and it bruised my arm one day when I had tried. I mentioned the bruising to my Physician, and the fact my arm was still getting worse, and he checked my blood levels. Well, they came back with results we didn’t expect. Not only had my Iron begun to decline, but my Factor 8 Levels(a coagulant-clotting factor) came back at 182% when the normal range ends at 156%. My blood count was decreasing and my risk of blood clots or strokes was increasing.

April 2018, this was the month my Physician made a referral for me to see a Hematologist(a blood specialist). And while we waited for the appointment to be made, we watched and waited as my blood work results came back worse. My arm was slowly getting weaker, and my gums began to bleed.

May 2018, my first appointment with the Hematologist at a nearby cancer center where he is located. My first official diagnosis for the records-I’m anemic, and probably will be for the rest of my life. My red blood cells are too big, my body won’t absorb enough Iron, and I’m not making as much blood as I should. My Factor 8 Levels raised again, this time to 222%, which put me well within the range to get a diagnosis of a blood disorder, but my Hematologist didn’t want to do it.

May 2018, my primary physician ordered Iron infusions to pump the iron straight into my blood stream. 5 times over a week and a half I sat at a hospital with an IV in my arm for nearly an hour each time, clinging to the hope that it would make me feel better. Maybe I wouldn’t be so tired, not so drained. That was a lost hope. This was the month I made the decision to buzz my head. All of my thick, long, wavy hair was gone. I was tired of watching it fall out and made the choice that it was going to come out on my terms. I was tired of explaining to people who saw the sides of my head that no, I didn’t shave it as a fashion statement, it fell out cause I was sick. Getting looked at like I was a wounded animal got to be too much, and I had more pressing things to deal with-like my arm getting worse by the week and the fear that I could have a stroke at 20 and not be able to see my daughter grow up.

June 2018, I had an appointment with a Neurologist for my arm, and when he said that at my age, he’s concerned I might have Multiple Sclerosis, I was devastated. What 20 year old mom wants to hear they have a life long disease that eats away the protective covering of your nerves and strips your muscles, leaving you weak and in pain?? He scheduled a brain MRI that I’d have to wait til next month to have. So we waited…

July 2018, well the MRI itself went fine, I slept through it even though I had a cage over my head. The appointment with the neurologist to go over the results, however, has me worried and scared every day now. They found lesions on the part of my brain where the 2 halves connect. I have irreversible brain damage. The neurologist is now heavily leaning towards MS, but doesn’t want to make the diagnosis himself so he’s sending me to a more experienced neurologist in a bigger city. My blood work showed no progress.

September 18, 2018, well it’s now September and August showed no improvement in my health. Nowadays I’ve been getting regular headaches(which aren’t normal for me), more and more frequent dizzy spells, my arm still hasn’t improved, and I look like a domestic violence victim with the amount of bruises on my body put there so easily by my worsening anemia.

Welcome to my story…

<!–Place this JavaScript once just inside closing body tag–>
https://www.plumfund.com/a/widget.js